From darkness to light

My dear Friends

I am in the hospital, waiting to see the doctors, who will discharge me today for good. It has been a long haul: from darkness to light. All the time I was in that dark and long tunnel, I knew in my deepest self that the light was at the end of it, the LIGHT, that is Christ, but with my physical being it was kinda difficult to actually feel anything emotionally or especially spiritually.

Now, having attended a radiant Mass on Sunday at the big Church, with all my friends round me, kneeling down between the hymns and the prayers, I felt the LIGHT pierce my being, as if God was actually touching my marrow. I had not felt that for a long time and knew it was a special grace, but from moment to moment it was difficult to hang in there and allow myself to be touched in that way. As I was submitting in the only way possible, I found myself praying for a special Friend and shouting to God amidst the music: 'Why did you take so long, I knew all this was really to bring me closer to you, but you took your time.'

And yet we ourselves have no time: only KYROS, God's time. My personal Revelation and the road to recovery started on the Orthodox Christmas, our Epiphany, which actually means Revelation. I awoke on 6th February and the grace really kicked: I had clarity about my condition and myself, and the healing started from there.

Staying the night in Benigna's house last night, she told me that the future looked bright and sensible. Not a bad word for someone like me, who is totally spontaneous, passionate and seren from time to time at the same time.

It is a privilege to be able to share all this 'on the spot' as it were, and if it is helpful to even one of you I will feel totally happy.

'Look towards Him and be radiant
let your faces not be abashed
The Lord hears whenever I call Him'

Onward and upward indeed.
Shalom and more Shalom
Sister Gila xxxxxx